Full Circle

Man. I love writing this blog so much. I love sharing what God is doing in our family. I am living it. Day by day. And it’s still completely unbelievable to me.

Cheyenne is precious. She absolutely loves it when she and I can spend time together. One of her favorite things…. when I read this blog to her. We snuggle up in one of the big chairs on the back porch and I read.

She loves them all. But she especially loves when she hears her name. Loves it. At first I thought it was as simple as that. Hearing her name. Nope. It took me a minute. To realize why she really loves it. But no worries, I got there.

It helps her process. As she hears about all the things from my perspective, it is helping her develop her perspective. Her story. And put words to it. Last night she asked if I would read her the post called “A Place to Belong.” She stopped me midway and said, “I just love how you write about how God is in everything. Because he is.”

I wanted to weep for joy. I didn’t. For fear that she might stop talking. She might stop her thought. But she didn’t. She went on and on about the ways that she can see, with her own eyes, that God is in everything.

And He so is. He is in everything.

I have been thinking about time a lot lately. It is so precious. It is worth so much. And it is non-renewable. Every minute is a gift from the Lord. And we are to use it wisely, and to His glory.

I was driving in the van with all 5 kids in tow. I had my workout music blaring because we all needed a little pick-me-up. A song came on called “Give Love.” I said, “Oh guys listen! This is where I got the name for my blog!”

So they stopped. They listened. They asked me to turn it up. They listened harder. When it was over they all started saying, “Mom! That is so you! That is exactly you! Can we listen to it again?!”

As we all listened again together, I had a full circle kind of moment. I can do better. So much better. I started this blog because my head was spinning. With all the blessings. I desperately needed an outlet. A way to get all those thoughts out of my head. But as I listened to that song, I realized I have to give it up for now, at least on a weekly basis, and give that extra time and energy and love to my people.